Okay, it's only fair for me to check in. Most of you who need to know know that TJ is still in the hospital. We had hoped for a Wednesday release - yeah, um.... that didn't happen. Right now I know they are testing for other things and TJ is beyond miserable. I know they have TJ sleeping and I hope to speak with TJ later tonight when wakes up and feels like talking.

Sorry for the lateness in posting this but I have not been on the PC at all. Plus I know TJ has talked to some of you or I have.

Anyway - that's pretty much all I am going to post unless I am okay to post more. As TJ been away from LJ for a bit I doubt they would want me posting much more.

I am actually writing again (not management material - that I've been writing) but actual other stuff. Granted it's not a whole heck of a lot. But I picked up the pad and wrote.

Felt good.

Ed - Farrah - Michael and now Billy Meyes! How many more?

To those who know it's for them - can you drop me a line and let me know when / if to expect you for Shore Leave? I'd like to start pulling things together if I could.

Much love & hugs
Me.

Okay so I suck at posting an update for the new Start Trek movie.

It is wonderful. It's good for the old and the new. Without giving spoilers they did it well and they did it RIGHT!

At some point I want to see it again in the theater. It is worth it.

Okay, no secret I am really excited about the new Star Trek. I am disappointed because the first show will be at 7pm on Thursday. I was hoping for a midnight showing but no such luck. Thus - 10pm Thursday it will be for me, hubby and mom-in-law who of course wanted in on the show.

I'm going to try and avoid the media reports tomorrow for fear of spoilage. Seriously I've been pretty good about it thus far and am going in with an open mind.

Plus - when the hell do I go to the movies to see ANYTHING that's not Lucas? *g*

Day 1 went well over all I think. Had a lot of people stopping by and had a few meetings in my new office which looks like HELL!

I still have so much cleaning to do and sorting. I still have the bulk of my files on the 11th floor (I am now on the 10th). So I have to work on that tomorrow. I also have no printer (which I think will become the running joke at this point).

Still getting to know the staff which is going to take some time still I believe. It's also very hot in the office and in their area where they work. The first think on my office list was a FAN!!! Need that.

Anyway, it's interesting to be doing something different and very odd at the same time that I don't need to jump at service levels. Very odd all the way around.

Still day 1 is behind me! Yeah me.

So it's official - starting May 1st, I will have a new job at my current company. It will be during the day shift which means that after 16 years I will no longer work night shift hours. It's odd because I am getting very mixed reviews from my employees. I believe most are happy that I am moving to a new level, it's just very odd because I am also getting the "how can you do this to us?" question a lot. Mixed with "but what about us?" Which to be 100% honest is breaking my heart. I can't tell you how much I've cried the past week (and I had a good no cry spell running there).

But I fully believe this is something I needed to do. I needed to move to the next step. It was time. It was past time. And this new job holds a lot for me and the company. I hope to do a lot of good for everyone in this new roll.

In the end - only time will be able to tell really.

I just wish I could be happy for myself and not so heartbroken for my employees.

Okay dear - I know I suck and I'm a day late, but Many Happy Returns!!!

and I promise the card is in the mail. ;-)

Okay, we all know I have been out of the loop. But I just saw this on the Sci-Fi wire back log and it really makes me sad.

Andy Hallett, who starred as Lorne ("the Host") on the TV series Angel, died of heart failure last night at age 33

He was a damn fine actor. I saw this just after an article where Marsters still wants to do a Spike spin-off.

For those interested, I don't believe I have plugged this here before. I would like to introduce the other website I am working on. It's my hopes that over time it will take off and start to bring in a bit of cash (keep fingers crossed for me please). It's not fan related - but for those who are interested in stuff outside of fandom I am trying to share my work knowledge that I have learn on an everyday kind of person level. Anyway... I present:

http://frommanagerstoleaders.com/

or

www.frommanagerstoleaders.com

The RSS feed will only kick you an email when the site is updated which on average is only 1 to 2 times a week at the most. But the email will ensure you know what is going on and I highly recommend it.

Take a look around - I hope you like what you see.

Okay, I admit to being excited. My O's are in FIRST PLACE! (and yes I know it was the season opener yesterday & that they have only played 1 game - Shut UP!). I love baseball season, mainly because I know the weather that comes with it.

Soon I will be able to have the windows open, sun shining in and sit out on the side deck with a book every now and again.

Plus - I will be able to get my bike out and RIDE!!!

O's Magic - feel it happen.

It snowed hard on the 2nd. My dogs love the snow!!!

So they added more people to Shore Leave's line up for 2009.

Kevin Sorbo (Hercules:The Legendary Journeys' Hercules; Andromeda's Capt Dylan Hunt) - Okay, not a huge fan - but I know he's a draw.
Adrienne Wilkinson (Xena:Warrior Princess' Eve and Livia) - no clue really
Jasika Nicole (Fringe's Astrid Farnsworth) - FRINGE!!!

So now... whose going to drop out before July? I was trying to have the charge for Shore Leave hit on a certain month, but with Mr. Kavin up there... it's in the mail for sure.

This is my dog, she hates my kitchen floor and will not place all 4 paws on it.

See how my dog takes a drink (we have since moved the fountain).

(sorry for no cut tag, but a bit upset right now)

Is it bad that every now and again I really have no idea what to say or what to put here? I pretty much look around and just believe it's all been said. In regards to show and what not. My life is very redundent to say the least.

I struggle with my weight - daily - it's a battle I am tired of and will send me into a depression if I focus on it to very much.
I have a need to write and yet can not focus my thoughts. This makes me angry on many levels.
I am sick of my extended family looking at myself and my husband as if we are a bunch of snobs because we don't want to do things that *they* find fun. I try and make piece and keep everyone happy more then they will EVER know and yet my efforts are just for nothing constantly. I'm sick of it. My mom and sister still are not talking to me (which I'm good with, I've dealt with it and processed it and maybe this is a good thing). Now I've got his side saying shit about me. That I'm selfish and childless? Excuse me? It's now a slam NOT to have kids? WTF! Do they care that I've been told a preganancy right now could KILL me or DISABLE me? I guess that doesn't matter to them, as long as I pop out a blob that will suck all the fun and joy out of my life as theirs did. Do they not understand that I *long* for kids. But I can not drop the weight in order to seriously consider having one? Which see point #1. I understand I've got mind issues about my weight and I'm my own worst enemy and I eat for comfort probably of childhood wrongs. I'm going to try and journal about this topic more because I think these issues are holding me back all over the place. But seriously it's now a slant against me that I'm childless? That's hurtful and I have to say I do not believe I have ever done anything to deserve that type of slap from ANYONE on EITHER side of my family. They needed help, we were there. They needed money, we were there. They needed a shoulder to cry on, we were there. They wanted to do Christmas gatherings at places that we were not comfortable at - WE WERE THERE. And I made sure of it. Because of HOURS of talking to my core group and convincing them it was the right thing to do. Did we miss a wedding, yes. Did we send a gift, no. Did we have financial thing at the time that I'm not going to tell them about - yes. Did we back out of the Christmas dinner this last year - yes. Was it my idea - yes. Did I tell them why in specific terms and how they could get us to go - YES! We were the only ones who backed out NO! So cut me some slack.

Am I really that bad of a person here?

On the up side - the training I conducted at work was well received and I enjoyed everything but presenting it. The first time was great, the second time I could not get my comfort zone at all. Still it's something to work on and work towards. Plus I loved the information and the material. This is still something I want to do with my life.

I am starting a new website related to my job (or rather my management knowledge). It's still in the very early stages to say the least but I have hope that this will being in extra money given time and effort to help it grow. It's very close to my heart to share what I know and to "teach to learn". Right now, I'm working on phrasing and streamlining things. I do need a logo, anyone know where I can get one?

So I have my positives and I just need to focus on them and let the others improve where possible.

It's at least a plan right?

Okay, Here you go a link to my hubby and his world.

Life of Gill

be kind and click and ad for him just to make him feel like a man?

Okay my friends - Happy Valentines day to you all!!!

*many hugs and much love*

And the names are up and I have to say I am *really* excited.

Jason Momoa - Stargate: Atlantis' Ronon Dex (I lust after this man. There I've said it.)
Rachel Luttrell - Stargate: Atlantis' Teyla Emmagan (YES! I mean come on - Teyla! Strong female character I really enjoyed.)
Robert Picardo - Stargate SG-1 and Atlantis' Richard Woolsey; ST:Voy's The Doctor (Yeah, I admit a conversation with Woolsey - I could dig it)
Ethan Phillips - ST:Voy's Neelix; (I really liked this guy when I watched the show so this should be cool)
Christopher Heyerdahl - Sanctuary's John Druitt/Bigfoot; Stargate: Atlantis's Todd the Wraith/Halling; Stargate SG-1's Pallan (TODD! FREAKING TODD! Really wanted him one year)
Michael Welch - Twilight's Mike Newton; Stargate SG-1's O'Neill Clone; ST:Insurrection's Artim; Joan of Arcadia's Luke Girardi (dupe guest for me but still cool!)

I can't wait to see if they pull anyone else up. My only worry is that some of these may drop out.

Keep your fingers crossed!

So - whose coming over?

One of my goals this year is to read a book each on the following two people:

Eleanor Roosevelt
Abraham Lincoln

Since I know a lot of history buffs are here, I thought I would put this out there for book recs. So please if you know any good books about either of these two please comment.

Many thanks!